I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU;

{Thursday, August 31, 2006}

happy teachers' day! (:

today has been quite fun lah
but the rain had to spoil everything.
i bet luo lao shi was disappointed, she really trained for this can.

but i gotta say the organisation skills is not good :/
its like we keep clashing with primary school and stuff!

yuqing didnt come that early, so we the shirts had to be given out in hall.
and its super small ):
its like i was supposed to have 30, it was the smallest t-shirt i ever wore.
(i wear big shirts to hide my fats uhem ;))
and it was super uncomfortable\:<
but what can we do ):
thank goodness i had someone to change with.
poor teo ):

bball was quite entertaining to watch.
although it was VERY unfair \:<
oh wells, this is their day loh.
and mrs nath played! super cute (:
charlyne and cheryl rocks the house down man (:
shuai ge :D
(macs incident is super cute :D)

come, see the fashion trend in teachers (:
1) ms stella was super cute and she was just like a student can! :O why cant we have HER as our teacher instead of UHEM.
2) LWW decided to go for the little school boy look that set alot of people to laughter! :D:D regina was getting highly excited.
3) mrs cheong looked super weird with her "went-through-tornado" hair. (: and her bag + pinafore! she aint young anymore she knows?
4) seth tan looks highly ridiculas and disgusting with his singlet. was he trying to act macho? :O
5) that andrian teacher was wearing a very tight shirt showing off his breast lah huh. \:<
6) that irritating woman evidently isnt very good figured but decided to go for sleeveless, smart.

i can be a fashion journalist! ((:
(GETS! NOTE THIS! :D:D)

i finally got photoshop! :D:D
yesssss, but i seriously need to read more tutorials ):
im stupid lehhhh ):

holidays! (:
although its really studying and studying. but still (:
but i bet there will be extra trng ): EURGH.
tired lahhhh ):
i cannot remember one can. my brain is limited ):

MUWHAHAHAH, IM SECRETLY A GUY.
(:

♥ ELNINO! (:

[[4:44 PM;

{Tuesday, August 29, 2006}

when things turn for the better, when the light of hope finally shone
you have the ability to go around and turn the whole situation
into a whole new beautiful disaster
now its time to move on, onto the next phrase of life and put behind everything else

school is getting more and more fun by the day
well, not counting the lessons of course.
not really anyone has the mood to study now
its like 2 more days to end of term? :D
1 more day to bring back everything under my table.
(which by the way is ALOT of things)

mrs nath is weird
i dont like her despite the fact that shes getting better
so im weird too, oh wells.
i want the waffle stick that luo lao shi gave!

OH MAN, TEACHERS DAY PRESENTS.
oh smart me, maybe im not going to give this year
ah, heck it

i hate graphs and how it confuses me
and how if one line is drawn wrongly, things will be rubbed off BLAHBLAH.
BUT HEY, at least the term is ending.
(thats SUPPOSED to be a good thing right)

bball today, was ENJOYABLE until uhemhemhemhem
i abit trying to play basketball, someone else trying to play tag along.
sure it was fun blah but im never going to play with them again.
(NOTE THIS, YUQING. i know you will read. tell me you read. please ;) )
i fell down and furthur injure my knee.
woah good and happy lah, see how i die in swmg tomm

SHOOTING!
omg, so exciting
although 7/8 of the time we are waiting for our turn ~~and at the same time talking and making a hell lot of noise~~
and the recoil is OMG
SO MUCH 8O
and cannot do double action lah! cheat one they all
practise so hard for double action and the clearing, then actually dont need.
stupid revolver i want my double action.
and i couldnt hear anything HE said.
so embarrasing :/

tek!
hey, its not that i dont want to do it. i mean i love this thing we're doing, its like part of my life. but now i really dont know anymore, i guess i just need some time to think about things over. RC means another few months of playing. and its really alot. i really dont know things anymore. i hope youre will understand and like just cope with my irritatingness. i know how irritating i can get. i hope youre will give me time. i need time.

jonn
i know how difficult im making things for you. but i really cannot promise you that i will commit myself through the whole tournament. as much as i want to do it, i know it is highly impossible. as i said, give me some time to thing about it. i have alot of things going on and time is really tight. i cant promise you i'll be there permanently for FF/F forever. i want to and i hope i can. but there are limits to my ability.

sylvia
you know as much as i hate to say this, you can really cheer people up. and fine, so you rock. but you seriously have to stop going around saying you rock. thanks for unintentionally bringing up my spirits! and i still cant believe you actually strained your eyes to read my post. am i supposed to be touched? and well, you can go on thinking that FF/F stands for fishermans friend (:

alex
lion! i know how i've been avoiding you these few days. but i really need the space and i know that if i talk to you, you will surely probe everything out from me. right now, i dont want to say anything and just want to think about things through clearly myself. im not daoing you okay. (:

jacq
bestfriend ! things will turn out right. dont be sad! it makes me sad too ):
she is not worth it if she really did those things. (: CHEER UP DARLING (:

sam!
im really great things are getting better between us. and you really dont have to be sorry dear. i should be the one sorry. youre right, i still have other things in life and i have to take them into consideration. what was i thinking? but really, you dont have to worry about my parents part.
thank you, thank you for waking me up, for caring

_____
i guess this is the way things have to end. i feel so useless now. i feel like im just like any other human that passed your paths in the mrt stations. you talk to others so much more now and all the times we had, all the trust we had just died along with the laughter we shared. all those memories that seemed so joyful have been overtaken by all the -iwanttokillyou stares. im not stopping you from talking to others. but the trust we had, must it die away? remember the time we sat looking at the stars puring out our problems, i guess that memory has to die along too.
this is the way things end. so much for happily ever after

i wasnt this high and happy de, but i guess some rock cheered me up
being so lame and all. :D
no matter what rock, you rock but you can stop being ego.
UHEM.
yes. please

and stop pestering for the post! HERE IT IS! :D

when will things fall into place

[[8:36 PM;

{Monday, August 28, 2006}

FINE. im jealous ):
im always jealous, heck it.
its like he has a almost PERFECT childhood and me? with almost the same parents?
at 5+ of age, he has flown a kite, got his bronze certificate for swimming, get a 500 piece jigsaw, etc. ?!
my first jigsaw was at 7 or 8 if im not wrong and its only what? 50 piece or something?
and im like 14 and i havent flown a kite? (i know not many people have :/)
i started learning swimming at 7! like hello. now my brother can be groomed into some fast and furious competitive swimmer while i struggle with stupid syncronised swimming.
and he will certainly get more medals/trophy/SHIT than me.
he gets to have a loving father that pampers him and scolds his evil step daughter.
he gets to have lots and lots and lots of memory of his father, and these are like HAPPY moments?
and me? my only two memories of my father is as follow :
1) our last meal together was at some stupid cafe in suntec.
2) he promised to spend my 7th (or is it 8th? or 6th!) birthday with me but he broke his promise and i never saw him again. what a liar. >:/ JERK.
what beautiful memories i have of him eh.
and the thing is, mr chris chan wei zhang and ms karon chung yun lei has the same mother.
life can be so unfair, i forgot the meaning of fair

bball was quite fun lah (:
MAYKUN is damn good ;D
hah, and so is the holickpink.(however you spell it :S)
i love blocking teo :D
and charlyne's group is the only one we lost so far.
i think thats supposed to be good right. :D

aiyuh, im so frustrated and i know its not only because some idiots cut my queue for the water cooler. but i dont know why im frustrated and i cant fix it ):

recess with janice, foong and panshin.
i still cant believe it ):
i know im being really selfish but i really dont want janice to go luhhhh ))))))':

homeecons was independance day?
hah :D library was very shuang :D with the aircon
but the librarian was NOT SHUANG AT ALL. >:/
stupid rude woman.

i hate reflections. ):

FF/F
i think we rock (: im sorry i didnt perform. i know i messed up. my mind wasnt there ): im sorry.
but im glad we did it
especially with all the difficulties we had (:
im really sorry for the mess up. i know we could have done better ):

tek!}
im really glad things are better now :D things being cleared up
never doubt it again our trust okay (:
we all love you, we really do :D

jonn}
eh, im really sorry i messed up.
you were right, my mind was wondering off somewhere else. im sorry.
i promise not to do it again okay. im sorry ):

TEO}
hey thanks alot for like trying to cheer me up, like at the basketball court. i know i cant and im still frustrated but the effort you made really meant alot to me. i really apprieciate it. thank you :D

SAM!}
i know im a great disappointment to you. but i really dont know how to explain things to you.
everything is just so complicated.
maybe im making it complicated myself, maybe i shouldnt have done anything from the start.
but now that i have started, i really have to carry on being wrong.
as wrong as it may be, it has to continue this way. i cant do anything about it now.
what you said and things really hit me very hard. it had like almost the greatest impact on me.
it was just so harsh. and it really affected me alot
(it was even more than coach's)
what i want to say is just that i have really tried my best to make everything right, but it is now beyond my control.
i know what i must do, but it is beyond the stardard of utmost impossibility to do it.
i really hope you will understand. one day.
until then, im sorry. i know the change is necessary, but i cant do it.

im sorry i let you down.
its funny how you seem to be a mother, the ideal one

i cant believe im supposed to be happy.
after crouch scored, after lampard scored
after WE won

when will things turn out right. when will the light shine from the end of the tunnel

gosh teo, i love you <3
and tek <3

[[8:10 PM;

{Sunday, August 27, 2006}

you wonder why they all shun you now, why they dislike you now. and i finally know why too. you know how freagling irritating you were? you are just so attention seeking you just want to have fun and nothing else. its drills for God's sake. and you have to act pai and roll up your sleeve, make a joke out of everything. yes, drills can be fun and funny, but you are seriously bringing things too far. and fine, you might make a good timer, but when another person wants to be the timer, why cant you let her? maybe she IS better. and you have to give others a chance. what if next year you become a NCO or a OIC or shit, then another girl has to be the timer what, and she wont be able to be a timer because she doesnt know the timings. you know selfish you are? you are just trying to impress the seniors and hope you can become great. it irritates people alot. this is called SUCK UP you know. i dont know if youre aware of it, but it is really highly irritating.i mean so what if youre the best? you dont have to show off what. EURGH.

saturday np then swmg.
uniform check was horrible
i hate my uniform :(
oh wells. i dont care anymore.

pt was quite fun lah (:
grouped with josephina, sylvia and vlau.
i realise sylvia moves back when she does situp, how .. interesting! :D
~~and the counting wrong part was super funny :D~~
i think josephina got a little shocked when i snapped at her that time.
im sorry, i moodswing. :(
bball was quite fun lah
at least sylvia finally actually touches the ball and is of use ;)

oh did i mention how fun friday's bball is?
i acutally shot in goals (:
like finally. hah
and playing against yuqing, regina and charlyne
the score is actually very good already :D

drills was okay luh
other than some irritating things that irritated me.
or i was simply moodswinging :/

by the time its for swimming, i was really tired
the dance is getting more and more retarded.
ohwells. :)

routine was okay luh, other than my NUMEROUS mess ups
and i dont look forward to learning more of it.
my memory is limited.
figure was quite retarded
i still cant do it, ah, who cares (:

gerrard is so wonderful.
muwhahah (:

oh my, that was so cute RIGHT!

crouch scored for liverpool again (:
he's so wonderful, and he's getting BETTER LOOKING. i swear okay
at least his hairstyle is nicer now :D
and he's like scoring for every game he played now.
(: even the england one against greece.
but he got substituted at the 2nd half by kuyt.
and not like kuyt is great :/
..
okay he is lah (:
i love liverpool :)
more than manu (im sorry, sam ;D)
but the manager still pisses me off. heh (:

why doesnt espn shows LALIGO? :(
even it shows also show the big clubs like real madrid :/
i havent even seen atletico madrid play before can! :(
whatever, im insane :O

tek}
oh my, no one is blaming you dear! i know you are sad and i cant do anthing about it. but please cheer up and if ever need a listening ear, remember im here, and so is my ear. partn, CHEER UP.
FF/F
the big challange awaits (:
and we can do it, we know. :D

when will you realise

tek! <3

[[1:07 PM;

{Friday, August 25, 2006}

I LOVE SCHOOL LIFE MORE AND MORE EACH DAY.

erica}
hey my dear nerd! dont be sad anymore! maybe you just need some time to discover all the things. maybe it isnt meant to be. i know how feels to be at that point. but ever want to find whats wrong? dont be so hard on yourself alright. (: and remember, as long as you hang in there, IM ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU. and i believe many others too.
CHEER UP

tek!}
PARTN! i know it seemed a little harsh on you. but jonn meant nothing of that sort and he wants to make sure you know it. dont hold it against him okay! (:

when is it going to turn out right

[[8:04 PM;

{Thursday, August 24, 2006}

school was so fun today okay (:
SO FUN!
its like LWW on course, mr foo leadership camp (:
but i would have loved it if it was ms nair who didnt come instead :/
i mean shes nice lah, but SO .. boring :(
and i thought i needed that art period.
my brochure is kind of shit now.

BBALL WAS SO FUN CAN. despite the fact that it was highly irritating to have regina shouting JIAOLIAN throughout the game :/
really, regina and charlyne shouldnt be same team lah huh (:
then got someone, play bball like an old man.
hah (:
i love maykun omg. so cute can. :D:D:D
i love talking to her, and yo her and laugh at her lame jokes (:
EH, SHE CAN BE A FOOTBALL COACH.
she is so much better than eriksson! :O
maybe she will be the first BIG SHOT female football coach :D
that will be so cool and exciting! (:

but bball was very sweaty :/
and i love shannen (:
so cute :D
oh man, everyone's cute? :O

luo laoshi is really nice lah (:
too bad chinese aint my genre :/ hah
the poem we were going to guess already LOH ):
made us so sad can
we were so close! )):
hah (:
chinese was exciting (:

ppr was shit.
im going to die and im not doing anything about it ):

i realise my post is all over. whatever

woah, today was DAMN tiring.
its like i thought ______ were rough, OMG.
they are worse. i almost died from tripping ):
and it was embarrasing :(
tsk, i shouldnt have _____ just like THERE in front of them. ):
eurgh, stupid me
anyhow, we damn zai!
and we rock
and im very tired !
and my physics is going to die, worse than die. im going to repoach myself like what i did for maths. EURGH.
like running around for 2hrs!
nevermind.
we did it (: nonetheless :D
although i was so horrible its like im losing the touch .. TOTALLY.
eurgh

FF/F!
dont worry so much
we're the most zai and we can do it de!
we have believed the faith and it has brought us along :D

i want to play football with shannen and maykun (:
i have a feeling they rock in it ;D
and i suck :/
tsk.

i want PHOTOSHOP lalalala

all the second thoughts

[[8:30 PM;

{Tuesday, August 22, 2006}

today was super moodswinging lah :(
im sorry to like EVERYONE.
i was aware.
so moral : KEEP AWAY FROM ME WHEN IM MOODSWINGING, FARFARFARFAR AWAY.
see i even put it in red so it serves as a warning ;)
SO YEAH.

sigh, i know my posts are so long and boring.
i guess its like only for THAT SOME loyal readers ;D
like myself.
i actally read my own posts :O
hehe (:

how lah
maths is having such a great impact on me :/
as much as im like ignoring it.
i cant help it :(
its like before i got back my paper i got very worried
and all the thoughts of how it was after i had my test flowed back
i felt like REBECCA BLOOMWOOD lah omg.
like so trapped and stuff.
so helpless :( i didnt want to take back the paper
i wanted to like retake it or never see the paper ever again to be reminded of the paper that made me so handicapp, so failure :(
URGH.
but i have to get back the paper lah, i mean like DUH.
i got quite high acutally, alot of people will wonder whats wrong with me and probably hate me for being a hyprocrite but it doesnt matter.
this test had a great impact on me and i dont care if i appeared as a hyprocrite bitch.
when i first got the paper, i got quite pleased lah
my first page is actually quite clean
then i turn to the back and felt as if im the biggest moron in the world.
i mean i CLEARLY wrote 60 at the first line, then i had to go and write 66 in the second line.
i felt like just stabbing myself or something :/

nevermind, according to darling melissa, i must be more OPTIMISTIC (:

i finally watched the WHOLE show of go figure. like i watched it alot of times of course, but always miss the beggining :/
so yest, I WATCHED THE WHOLE SHOW.
and realise jake abel is like even hotter than jonathan rhys meyers.
maybe not lah, BUT DAMN HOT (:

so gorgeous (:
as you can see, im easily obsessed with good looking guys ;)
but i like peter crouch ALOT too (UHEM)
and his eyes are SO :DDDDDDDDD

and the brother is so cute! his name in the show was brandon i think ;)

if it doesnt appear, refresh :)

blahblah (:
I LOVE CABLE
today got matches again
but not big clubs ):
oh well, its football nonetheless (:

MACS is somewhere to lift up my spirits (:
like i before i went, i was totally moodswinging, then i went with janice and had so much fun
talking about some LIME GREEN uhem? :D
heheheh (:
and like i go with tessa also (:
laugh like mad? :O
(: i love macs (:
and i love the people that i go macs with :D

[[5:23 PM;

{Sunday, August 20, 2006}

swimming is getting horrible.
i know its routine time and i should be happy really.
but its like its group routine and all, so we should accomadate to one another right?
like adapt to one another, give in to one another.
and become a team of one person. unity, synchronisation.
why impossible it is.
i ponder how all the video things happen.

its a team thing for God's sake, cant you act like youre in a TEAM? holy shit you. its like its highly impossible for the worse to be muchmuch better right? so you can only slow down and adapt to the slower ones, the lousier ones, in other words, ME. im not good enough i know. i cant do it know. im too slow for you i know. it was proven in the duet, and now the group routine i have to be beside you again. its really difficult trying to appear to be good when im beside i professional, a fast and like the best? i know im not fit enough for you, to be beside and will only pull you down. but the fact remains that this is a team effort. and as a team we have to act as one. and since we cant catch up with you, why cant you slow down? and be with us, and move together with us, so that we will appear as a team, and be one. just slow down? for us? for ME. its really a high difficulty to watch out for you to slow down when you appear stationary at the danba shit, then speed and sprint after you when you do the yulei. like hello, can you stay at a constant speed? you are ALWAYS moving, even when youre not supposed to. and im already slower than you, and in the part where im not supposed to move, i have to act like a moron and speed to try to catch up with you. i mean if i hadnt tell you and here i am bitching about you, then im at fault, but ive told you a million times and you still dont want to listen to me. you made me appear so lousy, so much below your level. i know im lousy, but is there a need for you to boast and make me feel worse? i dont know lah, maybe im being IGNORANT and SELFISH but i cant take it anymore. im tired of always being behind of you, and not voicing out, too scared. im tired of forever laughing with you just to entertain you. im tired of putting up with your nonsense and wtvr. im tired of entertaining you. im tired of listening to your shit. im tired of trying desperately catching up with you when i know i cant do it.
im seriously tired, cant you just give me a break.

see lah, just as i talking about all the shit below, telling myself i have to change ..
i blame others again
when its clearly about me being slow, being lousy.
eurgh

and i actually even have passer-by trying to cheer me up.
oh freak it.

epl is enjoyable (:
and i love man u lah (:
and their coach is much better than that stupid liverpool coach
i hate the liverpool coach can, even more than i hate eriksson.
who is it anyway
and i have to go out today to eat KOREAN food.
:/ until i miss 5 goals in the match. eurgh :(
rooney scored 2, ronaldo 1, saha 1, 1 own goal, MAN U is lovely lovely.
im going mad
along with samantha
hehehhehe (:
but i'll love to see my torres run across my tv lah.
it'll be like what 2008 before i see him again :(
oh man.
and i keep seeing ronaldo nowadays and i go gaga over him and jump up and down ~~and moan when he missed that easy clear shot~~
but what i really want is my darling torres and moan when he misses something and cheer when he scores and even jump up and down whenever the camara focuses on him.

oh man, wheres my torres
of course my cristiano is really nice to watch too.
but my torres!

and euro wont have cristiano.
so now i miss torres, i will miss cristiano later ;D

soos;
i know its really hard on you two. especially you, lukray. but hold on okay, hang in there. the storm will pass and all will be fine (:
jacq;
hey lovely bestie, dont be so sad anymore. we're here for you okay, no matter rain o shine.
a guy aint worth it (:
lew;
i know you will read this, alien. so you dont pretend you didnt. i just want you to know that times may be tough now, but hang on there. your fam will be alright. everything will turn out fine. believe the faith (:
lion!;
eh my darling lion! dont be so sad! influenced is it! dont be okay, cause you know that im always there for you, to watch the stars through the phone with you ;) cheer up ;D
tek;
eh womanwoman! you are essential to us! you are like the best please, dont look down on yourself, cause we look up to you. you are not the one letting us down. we are letting you down
marvells;
omg, you crazy brothers (: but i know something is up. i dont need to know what, but bear in mind, youre need someone to talk to? we're always there, im always there :D
mac;
i miss macs with you! and your father will understand one day. believe me (: and you have to trust and hang in there. we'll be there for you as you hang in there, you can count on that ;D
creek;
your father wont come anywhere near again, dont worry. everything is fine (: you are not yourself lately. dont be so troubled! :) smile like what you are here for :D
khor and daris;
dont quarell anymore :( you sad = team sad. you two have to work together and be a team. remember all for one, one for all? i know youre can achieve it. give in! (: remm the bridge story! (:
FF/F! times are difficult for us, for all of you.
and i know, but hang in there, and bear in mind we each have each other to lean on (:

teo;
thank you my dear (: i love you alotalot :D you really helped me alot.
and dont worry, epl kindof cheered me up :D
you stay cheerful too alright! :)
sam;
i rock dont i (: you will know more about football than i do one day ;)
heh, until then your dream of cristiano! (:

i love the friends i have and rock my life (:

when will you learn to know me, to give in, to give me a break

[[9:56 PM;

i love ~~all~~ the people around me and realise im seriously blessed.
so blessed (:

but im getting jealous.
jealous over a boy that received his first trophy when he was 5 years old.
over a boy that will probably get his second medal/trophy at 6 yeard old.
over a boy that is showered with love from his parents.
when i only got my first medal at 12 years old. a pathetic medal on maths.
im not a nerd. :/
and his medal? on some running relay blah.
over a boy that doesnt even share the same surname as me but share the same parents with me.
over a boy named chris.

when can i get over this jealousy

[[1:56 PM;

11 reasons for myself to hate myself / why i suck totally.
1) i slept only like half an hour on thursday/friday morning to rush some stupid chinese(which i totally hate) newpaper thing knowing that the next day im going to have a important and difficult maths test and that im going to stay back for cip/np till 630+
2)in the end, i still didnt hand in the newspaper thing on friday because i was too stupid and ~~forgot~~last minute realized that we had to gather at 2 when school ends at 2. and i couldnt find my newspaper last minute. so i couldnt finish pasting/decorating/blah the stupid thing despite all the help i had. i suck lah, even with so many people halping me, i still cant do it. and despite all the time i had during recess, i still didnt make full use of it to do it. i suck
3)i didnt even touch maths on thursday, so the maths test on friday proved that maths has to revised and practise and studied. the maths test was the worst i ever had and i barely want to talk about it. for the first bloody time there are easy questions that i fail to do. that i dont even know how to go around and tackle it. for the first time there was absolutly no extra time for me to even look through to see if i left out any questions. for the first time i declare and admit that i hate maths. and i have disappointed myself so much i feel sorry for myself and at the same time hate myself so much for letting myself down.
4)after maths test everyone was talking about it and i realized what a stupid idiot i am. im a total moronic human that think that i can get through a maths test set by ms rocky easily without ~~any~~ revision. i thought too highly of myself. i was too proud, too ignorant. and in the end i knew that if i had stayed any longer in that little room with all the people discussing all the maths issue, i would breakdown and cry like how paul will when his hair is all shaved, being a total coward and loser. so i had to cowardly retreat to the toilet with ultra nice peiwen that comfort me. what a pathetic little shit i am, needing a nice girl to comfort me after a maths test that i had confidence in, that i didnt study for.
5)the maths test had such a big impact on me. everyone was talking about it, in class, in np. and emily(or someone else?) had to remind me of the test when we are at the bus stop, just as i was forgetting about it. getting over it, getting ready for ~~exciting~~ 3hrs of cip at taka. the test seemed so difficult to me.just so bloody difficult to me, and yet, pretty easy to janice. what i bloody loser. i hate myslef. so i had to again retreat to a corner all by myself to shut myself out of all the maths discussion knowing that if i continued, i could probably bash someone up or something. and apparently i appeared very pathetic or someone that is dying or something. cause rachel and audrey started talking about me and had to gather everyone to remind us that if we're not feeling well, we can tell them. i know its because of me. im actually letting people get worried about me because im a loser and did not dare to live up to reality that i am indeed controlled by maths, by some operations and numbers.
6)i told grace to chill about maths. that maths is just - + / x , and that she should be the one controlling maths, not letting maths control her. in the end? she was so confident, so sure about the maths test, and im the one that needs chilling, the one that needs to learn how to control maths. im actually overtaken by maths, maths that is just - + / x. for the first time maths is evil(just like chem). for the first time i dislike maths, hate maths. and maths becomes my point of weakness. maybe LWW is evil, he is my KE XING. ever since he came about, my maths deproved :( oh shoots, see lah, im blaming my lousiness on someone else. on someone that teaches me things. what a loser i am. i have to stop blaming others. especially when its all my fault that i didnt study for it. failure lah me ):
7)i keep blaming my plight on others, keep saying nothing is my fault, its all about others. ~~im perfect~~, others arent. everytime, its about him/her, nothing about me. i do everything right. its just that he/she blahblah. but none of it is true. im guilty, guilty of blaming others, guilty of blaming my brother. my brother so innocent now learn to guard himself against me. i keep blaming all the fights are caused by him when im the one that provoked him. im a bloody liar and dont want to admit it. im the loser im the selfish one, not my brother. im the one that never study for the test, not because LWW was a lousy and slow teacher. its my fault, and im sorry.
8)i didnt dare to even say excuse me to some strangers on orchard road at first despite all my experiences (UHEM) and i was such a loser i didnt sell 4 tix but 3. and we didnt even really did it, we had to resort to such a loser method. and i was the loser that suggested it. the freakling loser. even when i had such a nice partn like janice, i still showed the loser part of me. the racist/biased side of me. and i influenced her, from the innocent to the evil. just like how i transform my brother
9)i self-pity so very often and moodswing so much and talk to others about my plight, expecting people to pity me. i admit it. i know, its such a loser thing. and i hate myslef for that. seeking pity? omg, that is actually me. wth. and i moodswing so much and i blame it on others, again. i get angry so very often and kill and scold and shout at people because of my moodswings. and my poor victims have to accept and silently absorb all my shouting because im moodswinging. like regina, im sorry alright. maybe you should just keep away from me. jtc .. the sec ones. im freagling biased. and i know i shouldnt have shouted at youre until like that. im sorry, even if you deserved something, it wasnt that loudy shouting and all that. people have to suffer because of my loser-ness. damnit.
10)while yuqing is loving maths more. im hating maths more. and actually liking chinese more (jianbao was quite fun lah). im actually liking a subject that i cannot achieve in more and hating the subject that is my only hope. the subject that will actually score for me. damnit.
11)i talk about all these telling myself i have to change. telling myself i should stop moodswinging, i should start to pioritise, that i should stop blaming others, stop thinking highly of myself, learn to be humble. learn not to lie, not to set my brother up. i know i should achieve all these. but the fact remains that i cannot do it. i know i have to do it, i tell myself to do it, only knowing that i wont change. i will remain as the loser that i am. i guess my parents are right. i will never learn. i will never change. and remain the loser that i am.

the loser within me. so this is the real me.

even EPL fail to cheer me up.
liverpool was a disappointment. and i hate the stupid biased coach (like me) that refused to play crouch when it was so clear that the team needed crouch.
and liverpool was playing just like england. only goal from a penalty kick.
although arsenal was disappointing, they were much better.
at least their goal was real, was worthy.
and i just realised how walcott rocks, he is seriously good.
now i understand why eriksson brought him to germany.
but still, why didnt he play walcott?

cip was okay lah (:
on friday.
some people were so obviously ~~flirting~~ with ___
weirdos
then it was highly amusing to see ____ chasing shannen around (:
and not forgetting the painful expression on her face ;D

yst swimming. the routine again ;)
enjoying lah, no need dan ba, no need whatever shit.

my brother just return from swimming selection.
i actually wanted to go .. just for entertainment.
but i remembered his bronze test and know i cannot go.
it will turn out as a total disaster.

where is the me that i want? when can i take off this mask

[[12:03 PM;

{Wednesday, August 16, 2006}

hah (:
i love football and i love ESPN :D
oh man and i swear LEE YOUNG-PYO is damn good (:
even better than that curly hair ahn okay :D
and tottenham wasnt as good as i expected :/
and that robinson is kinda weak :/ hehe (:
but keane rocks (: heheh :D
proness (:
each match i watch, i learn a couple more new faces and name (:
but where was aaron lennon lah, carrick sucks :/

(: yay :D

i shall shut up before i get complains from UHEMHEMHEM again (:

anyway to sum up today (:
1) english marathon is boringlyboring.
2) the newspaper test was quite nonsense and so were my answers.
3) mrs nath is really weird. but shes getting better, really
4) LWW is weird too and he takes 2 secs to understand what im saying.
5) i still hate talking infront of audience
6) i messed up IPW, i know it. im sorry :(

AH, SWIMMING.
here i come.
and im still sick
damnit. fine lah :(

[[5:12 PM;

{Tuesday, August 15, 2006}

im in GOODY MOODY (:

1) crouch scored like recently (refer below (; )
2) CRISTIANO RONALDO is like once again running across my tv and like NOWNOWNOW :D

even my mum is excited about cristiano okay (:
oh man (:
im on happy girl :D:D:D:D

BUT. because my grandmother wants to catch the last episode of whatever show there is, channel 23 have to be switched to something else ):
but nevermind (:
i think i've got enough of running in and out of the study room to go to the living room to watch every now and then. its kindof tiring :/
and there was at least 3 times he almost scored.
well, 2 really. one was a VERY good pass to scholes who was like LIKE INFRONT of the goalpost
and he had to miss :/

look at how cute he was! :D
so adorable lah (:
he was born to look good.

today was a normal day lived by a very happy girl (:
hope tomm will be the same :D
yay (;

mass today morning
went to it and almost fell asleep.
people tired lah huh
then the scary thing was we had to report to SL
thank goodness we dont have to run
-looks at the non-catholic girls

i havent done the village by the sea
havent even finish reading it.
i was trying okay. :(

and luo lao shi deserves my pity.
no one listens to her
with the exception of maybe yuqing? (:

weirdly, im looking forward to cip ;)
i know im not supposed to. :(
and shannen not happy she doing with me lah fine.
she trying to spite me lah fine.

COME. we shall brighten up our days with a article on torres (:

07-08-2006
Torres, the spaniard most required for the mass during the World Cup
The forward of the National Team figures in front of Raul and David Villa, according to a study of the University of Navarra

The Germany World Cup keeps generating good news to Fernando Torres. According to a study announced the last week by the Center for Sport & Business Management of the IESE of the University of Navarra, the forward of the National Team has been considered the highest mediatic value of Spain after the match of the World Championship. Torres rose up in front of Raul Gonzalez and David Villa as the most required footballer by the mass.The study based on the sistematic analysis of the appearance of the players, clubes and national Team at web pages and in the mediatic cover at the period of the World Cup. In all, it has analyzed 736 football players members to the 32 represented selections.This investigation considers, as highest the presence of the football players in the mass, highest the benefits bring to the clubs and to the representated selections. On other hand, Zinedine Zidane has been the football player worldwide most valued in this study.

see those i highlighted?
you dont even need to read the WHOLE article ( which i know you will most unlikely wont unless youre like me : )
see, im so caring ;D

and lastly, something thierry henry said about torres :D
28-06-2006
"Torres is an extraordinary forward, and If he has a good head he will become a worldwide player. He is young and he has everything to be grandiose"

even beckham has praises for him (:
15-01-2005
"For me Fernando Torres is one of the best players I’ve come up against in Spain, and he’s one of the best forwards in Europe. The problem is that, as he is a forward, people only look at his misses but he’s a great player"

see? stop looking at his misses :/
but oh wells (:
i love football lah (:

[[9:41 PM;

{Monday, August 14, 2006}

crouch scored lah :D
can you tell that im happy, cause im really very happy :)
did i mentioned im happy?
cause crouch scored :)
yay hiphip horray (: come 3 cheers for peter crouch :D
hiphip HORRAYE hiphip HORRAYE hiphip HORRAYE :D:D:D
ah, im one happy girl on the 14th of august 2006 cause on 13th of august 2006, crouch scored a terrific header in for liverpool (:
that other guy was good too lah, heard his pass to crouch damn nice
yes, i have to resort to HEARING cause the stupid match is at 930 and my father thinks its an useless match as its for the COMMUNITY SHIELD and thus, dont want to watch :/
smart eh. i know :/
but nonetheless, CROUCH scored.
i know he abit ugly and stuff lah but he's not that bad okay! and he seems nice (?!) (and he's not THATTHAT ugly can)
and i like him (: yay :D:D
i told you i like people who are weird.
rachel ask me why i like people who always gena talk bad about. ~~(lampard and crouch?!)~~
i wonder too .. HMMMM

and im so sad i cant find the picture of his header online lah.
i guess either the web is too slow (UHEM) or they think that this match is nothing too (like UHEM)
but nevermind, we shall have to make do with some NICENICE quotes on gerrard :D
"He is our talisman - I mean you just can't replace him. Thank goodness everything was sorted out last year! Everything's settled down now and I know he will be with us for life. He's an unbelievable player and I wouldn't swap him for anyone. He has got everything and never ceases to amaze. He has been magnificent, different class."
-LFC Chairman David Moores on Steven Gerrard.
"I'd put Steven in the top five or six players in the world. In my opinion, I would say he was probably the best. I don't think anyone else could play for Liverpool and do more than he does."
-Jamie Carragher on Steven Gerrard.
hah (: see gerrard rocks too :D

oh wait, this is supposed to be about crouch
yay crouch (:

fine, jeanice is asking me to shut up before this whole post is about football. and it better not be because i still have loyal readers like tessa and lyanne :D

so anyhow. we played bball today (PE you see :D)
but 2 purity was SO LUCKY because it rained just before PE.
we are so fortunate arent we ;D
yeah but then our group rocks lah (;
FURRY BANANA HUHUHU (:
~~i didnt know how to spell HUHUHU okay :/~~ thats not the point.
the point was. the court we used was the primary school one.
and it was FLOODED i tell you FLOODED. :/ so you can imagine my disgusted level.
that was before the game okay.
after the game i felt worse than after i play football for 90 min can :/
EURGH.
but. the turning point was that rachel teo is a very fun to block girl
i love to mark her lah (: just like how i love to rub her hair :D
but i'll love to play with them on DRY ground
cause by then i'll be able to run around and block teo and see what shes capable of (:
AND MELISSA IS SUPER CUTE OKAY (:
hahahah
our game was so full of screams :S

AND GRACE IS SUPER FUNNY OMG.
pluck banana pluck pluck banana! (:

LWW is driving everyone mad.
especially melissa. oh man :/ shes so mad she scares me.
shes worse than porlin! :O

and UHEM is super irritating oh man.
i feel like slapping him.
whats wrong with him! he and his super loud voice, think he very great is it.
his class smart loh, FINE LAH.
come to us and condemn us. wth :/

today chiong all the way ;D
history chiong
homeecons chiong
zuo wen chiong
and to think that i finished all of them!
although my zuowen is sure fail one. :/
AND SHE CHEAT OUR FEELINGS LAH
say today due the stupid ten newspaper articles when its actually due on FRIDAY.
i did do okay. :/ the only chinese work that i started at home.
cheat my feelings.
now you know why i dont do chinese homework at home.
but its not like i did all ten articles already.
-looks at regina and shakes head poor regina
blah i told you life is full of surprises.
thats why i dont plan.
thats why i suck and i fail at everything.
OHWELLS (:

IM ONE HAPPY GIRL
~~(yellow = sunshine = happy! (: )~~
(red = liverpool colour! :D )
~~(i listen to art lessons! :) )~~
<33333

[[8:48 PM;

{Sunday, August 13, 2006}

lampard is NOT lousy okay :/
oh man. why does everyone think he is lousy just because of a messup in the world cup!
one messup, even if its a big messup doesnt mean he is lousy can.
he didnt shoot in any goal for world cup doesnt mean he cant shoot in any goal.
just recently he shot in one for chelsea :D
SEE. he is CAPABLE of it okay :/

and im happy terry's capt :D
YAY (:

okay. i should shut up about football now.
by the way, THIS IS FOR YOU LYANNE.
since you dont order newspaper.
man, how do you LIVE?

i hate being sick.
and now im sick :/
but get to go off early yesterday and avoid that pull back thang that i entirely hate.
and watch the LOVELY FIREWORKS.
oh man (; its so nice okay.
and we didnt even have to squeeze with everyone and sweat super much.
hey sam take care okay.
your muscle will be okay de (:
jian chi xia qu ba!

i still cant believe i lasted through the whole of np.
i thought it was nothing.
i came home dying and pissing everyone at home off.
oh wells.
(: TUG-OF-WAR (:

i love mr bean's pancakes :D

and i still dont have a map of the darn school.
the school EXPECTS us to know the school inside out?
IN CHINESE? :O
hello. they are insane.
10 newspaper reflection IN CHINESE.
i should seriously get a professional traslator :/
EURGH.

i want PHOTOSHOP

[[3:47 PM;

{Thursday, August 10, 2006}

its just so hard to say goodbye.
oh man.
I'LL MISS YOU SO MUCH.

and i should just stop saying oh man and eh.
but i cant help it!
OH MAN.

[[9:22 PM;

the BELIEVE

today is thursday.
today is the last day ruiyi is officially in singapore
OH MAN.
i'll miss her so much :/
sending her off was sad
but we had alot of photos (:
went to burger king and had alot of laughs (;
like in filling up the form?
i didnt know melissa has a 35 year old daughter/son ;D
and i know choryi and eunice secretly likes my brother! :D
hah fighting to give that little toy? :O
oh man. the age gap is 8 years!
is my brother THAT attractive! :O

match was difficult.
and super rough lah :/
AND SUPER ITCHY.
omg, the mosquitos there are like havent eaten for 3 months? :O
CELEBRATION was so fun!
i bet we seeked damn lot of attention lah.
screaming like maniacs (:
but it was so fun (:
almost got chided for returning home so late :/
but it was worth it :D
but it had to go into penalties even when theyre down to 10men.
i suck man :/

im sorry.
i didnt know what i was doing.
i didnt know what was i thinking.
im sorry i was distracted
im sorry i let that in.
im sorry.

just FYI.
especially for people like foosiyun
my boyfriend is fernando
FERNANDO JOSE TORRES SANZ

he is the love of my life.
okay, he is my boyfriend
the one. the one im always talking thinking about.
him

see?
thats my love.
so hot and style. THE HAIR :D

okay im being ridic here
so you should know im not taken.
even if i DO have a boyfriend.
it would be MYSELF.
see im the guy. and im the girl (:
yay (: how wonderful. i go on dates with myself :D

[[6:44 PM;

{Wednesday, August 09, 2006}

just watched singapore idol.
and was wondering what the hell was happening.
:O SO HORRIBLE! :O
hady was good though (:
and so was jasmine :D
BUT paul omg. his hair! his tune!
oh man :/

and this year's ndp was so dissapointing.
no appeal
no feeling :/
oh wells.
but i thought the fireworks were great :D
so nice (:
wait, when is fireworks never nice? :O

ANYWAY.
todays 'celebration' was okay lah (:
but i think it was quite geek? :O
AND PHILIP OMG.
what was he trying to do!
he totally looks like a geek.
AND the dance is finally over.
all the hardwork all the worrying (:
went pretty well i thought.
but it was super embarrasing and well, we didnt really know what we were doing.
or rather I didnt :/
and the hair omg, so lovely!
and I came up with the idea. oh genius-ie me (:
oops, ego? :O
THE STAR IS OMG SO PRETTY!

stupid face i've got there. i know. (:

compare it with AFTER i went out. :/

and the pro at work (:

doing the star :D

and the work of a pro (;
ahhahah :D
sorry. i shall stop being ego (:
but its really nice right! :D:D

went out after the celebration to j8
w/o coach. kinda sad though
but NEVRMIND (: we still had loads of fun :D
we watched ANT BULLY (: so nice! and funny :D
BUT. i still cried. super embarrassing lah
i didnt even know why i cried. to think of it.
OH MAN! :/
hahahah :D
natalie was really cute :D
and all the drinks were finished by half the movie lah! ahhaha
and we were so attention seeking omg. :/
imagine SEVEN peopl with the star, two ponytails? :O
i bet we looked like bimbos :/ hhahah :D

came home expected to be scolded.
but i wasnt!
AND I GET TO SEND RUIYI OFF (:
and play :D
oh so exciting :D
but its really sad lah.
I'LL MISS RUIYI! ):
oh man cute little ruiyi!

hey my lovely synchro ladies :D
we will go out some other time again
WITH COACH :D

[[10:08 PM;

{Monday, August 07, 2006}

my leg

it really sucks when someone really doesnt understand you when you most need it.
im bloody rushing for the rubbish elit essay and my grandmother has to come and talk to me at 10pm + about the new clothes.
HELLO.
of course i flare up. im DESPERATE omg.
and she had to show her temper like shes of my age or something.
WOMAN, YOURE ALREADY 60+ PLEASE.
omg :/

and im so pissed at someone omg. :/
MY LEG IS SWELLING LAH.
one step and my even my left leg is injured.
and i still have march past tomm.
how LUCKY.
how FORTUNATE.
i feel like punching her, really.
buy a voodoo doll man
its hurting like ALOT and what if it swells up too much.
and the dance on wed.
DAMNIT.

life is so unpredictable
you dont even want to plan.

i dont even look forward to thursday now that my leg is in this state.
and i didnt even go for prac today.
and i realised my posession is easily lost cause i toyed around with the bball during pe.
its like im really lousy lah omg. :/

AND.
ruiyi's last official school day ):
i told you life was unpredictable.
LAST PE, LAST HOMEECONS LAST SCHOOL DAY W LESSONS.
omg, i'll miss her lah (:
shes so cute :D
and so is her phone. (:
speaking of her!

IPW WAS SO FUNNY (:
we didnt bring the ppt slides cause apparently SOMEONE was sick
so yeah, we got chased out bcause we've got a really irritating high pitch voice teacher.
like truth also had people who didnt do it lah.
SO ANYWAY.
halfway, ruiyi and peiyun came out to go toilet
after returning from toilet, they just sat down and talked with us (:
how fun :D
hanxu wasnt enjoying the chat though.
and i swear she was thinking too much.
she should just SLEEP :D

my leg is going to swell.
and im still depressed
and i cant see how im supposed to march
or run
or dance.
MY LEG. OMG. :/

RUIYI, we'll really miss you

[[10:38 PM;

{Saturday, August 05, 2006}

football is still in me

i know football is like something that happen like SO LONG ago and its super old news.
but i seriously still watch it. :/

i was watching half of the repeat of the amsterdam tournament match between man u and fc porto.
then i saw the scores of manu were by rooney and scholes.
but rooney was NOWHERE to be found! :O
i only realized after awhile rooney got sent off.
MYMY. whats up with him omg.
especially when i start to like him (after that big article on his forgivings (: )
oh, but i did get a shock when we was handed the captain's band :O
its like :O:O:O
and the manager is super biased lah
so obvious he LOVES rooney :/

then i watched the videos on rooney, c.ronaldo and messi.
i know theyre supposed to be the top 3 rising brightest stars
but i gotta sadly admit the best is messi.
gosh his speed, his accuracy, his passes.
and he doesnt dive that much!
and best thing yet, he actually PLAYS IN A TEAM.
no seriously, ronaldo and rooney always goes solo lah.
but messi is different.
he remembers he has a team.
OH MAN. i shouldnt be worshipping him.
but i cant help it lah omg. :/

but he looks weird with oversized shirt and pants.
but its cute nonetheless (:

im one stupid football addict.
i shall stop acting like a moron.
some day, one day
meanwhile, i'll go on watching the videos :D
still got alot more lah
jonn is trying to kill all of us. :/
hahh, from watching videos :D

I DONT HAVE RED AND WHITE THING LAH.
IF I DO WEAR MY ONLY RED AND WHITE CLOTHES, I WILL LOOK LIKE IM IN PAJAMAS CAN. :/
oh bummer :/

[[2:47 PM;

{Friday, August 04, 2006}

worst marching experience

i will not elebrate on that ^ first.

come let me tell you about wednesday and whether i survived.
as you can see, im still here blogging.
so thus, i survived, with only one cell living.
and that cell is desperately splitting now, to help me recover from ALOT of things.
ANYWAY.
before today's dry run, i thought the worst marching experience will be that day when we marched for 3 hours.
i was so tired lah.
and my hands just refuse to cooperate. they refuse to straighten and became really painful.
then my legs too! OMG >:/
to cut it short, MY EVERYWHERE WAS ACHING.

and i had to go for swimming.
imagine my mood.
luckily, coach allowed me to rest
so pris and i went down at 715. (:
but nonetheless, i was tired.
and thank goodness there was no underwater.
i would have just fainted on the spot if she expected me to swim 35m underwater with all my muscle aches.
(at that point, my stomach muscles were still aching, but just a little (: )

and coach was being nice lah
so it wasnt that bad.

thursday
was really excited (:

art photoshop was fun lah (:
but the test? :O
i havent been listening! :/
and the thang is not progressing well.
oh wells, wish us luck. (:
HANXU LURRRRHHHH (:

indian dance was superb.
i think we won. we won in our own way.
and we won well (:

after school went to eat macs with porlin, tomoe and her friend and siyun (:
shit lah, must stop eating macs.
im growing fat lah :/
anyway. PORLIN PRACTICALLY RAN TO MACS LAH.
omg. crazy woman.
then in macs, SHE ATE WITH SUCH A TREMENDOUS SPEED and so did tomoe.
and to the horrors of horrors, tomoe realised her FULL OF EFFORT geog notes were not with her.
and she copied them all over again (not all lah)
and i told her i'll laugh if she does it, so here goes, -LAUGHS AT TOMOE-EH
omg, so cute lah :D

then after that, cause there was no one to stay in macs with me anymore, i went to the roadside to wait for my mum at 340 when she would come at 400 ( AND SHE WAS LATE :/)
i felt like a total moron :/
but there was pris's smses (:

then the HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY (:
almost couldnt go lah. mother almost caught me :/
but i pulled it off (:
i dont know how long this thing will last lah omg. :/
but imagine telling my mum i play football. i think she will blow up like a volcano
ANYWAY.
the other team was super rough lah :/
TSKTSK.
and it was so bloody obvious they were after me.
kept tripping me lah. serve them right for playing with a 9men team.
stupid cocky captain that looks worse than that octopus in pirates.
i swear he's just as evil as chem.
but we were nice. with my nice approach.
THE CHOC WERE HIGH CLASS ONE OKAY. :D

celebration was super fun lah
best thing? JON PAID :D
okay, i sound so cheapskate :/
i swear creek got drunk from drinking syrup.
mad man :D
I LOVE FF/F

came home, almost got caught lah :O
but than still had to call that bitch.
holy bitch, i still had to apologize to her? :O
SENTIMENTAL FEELINGS.
wtf.
so im supposed to raise flag for a girl that has SENTIMENTAL FEELINGS for a damn watch.
it even sounds ridic please.
i cant be bothered anymore. this thing is settled. but i will hate her forever man ;)

today
school wasnt that bad :D
clit was super funny.
especially the part where she did the jian and grace, me huizhen were looking at the screen.
so cute lah (: travelling through time! :O
CHINNY TOO :D
hheheh (:

BUT. np had to spoil my day.
i was so tired by the time the 2nd dry run. i was so dead i swear half the total amount of cells died in me.
im not a robot loh.
i dont know how everyone else does it, but i was really worn out and felt like dying
~~wth, then halfway i almost cried can. i could feel it coming. thank goodness i held it back. imagine if i cried. I WOULD DIG A HOLE IN THE GROUND AND HIDE IN IT FOREVER~~
and SJ omg :/
nevermind, they are SJ. we are NP. we are GIVING (:
and we ought to be ashamed of choo. :/
omg lah BOMBOMBOM. omgomgomg
i laugh until i want to pee can.
video cam = belok cam? :O
mr cher = CHERCHER = teacher! (mr foo & shirley! )
mr choo is a clown. he should take part in the new show of the best comedian.
(:
band was laughing at us, SJ was laughing at us, everyone was.
and i dont blame anyone.
heheh :D because im laughing too.
but then the jokes died down and it was the worst drills session of my life
my legs gave up on me, my hands gave up on me
even my heart gave up on me.
i should just give up on myself too.

omg, that weixiang guy is cute lah :D
but torres shall always be the cutest :D

oh man, im so tired.

im so tired of life
im so tired.
i dont want to do this anymore
cant you see im tired?
THIS IS MY MAX. this is the ultimate.
this is the last straw.
i cant take this anymore.
oh someone run a car over me
do something, kill me

FF/F
WE ROCK (:
we go on like this, WE'LL BE THE CHAMPS
HAVE FAITH :D
lion! its okay you underperform! dont blame yourself le.
people do it once in awhile (:
choy! you and your father will improve de (:
dont worry so much (: we'll always be there for you (:
lew ! dont be too stressed okay.
if its too much, tell us! we will help you de! :D:D
and you have NEVERNEVER let us down :D
FF/F, JIAYOU BA! (:
<333333333333333

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{Tuesday, August 01, 2006}

HAPPY FAKE BIRTHDAY, HUIZHEN!

yay, todays so exciting! (:
tomm wont be so exciting though.
NPCC + SWMG. imagine my tiredness.
luckily, theres no np today :D
and i studied geog! :D
im so guai please.
the test is like on FRIDAY.

lalalala this week so exciting (:
BUT the lack of sleep is getting into me.
i almost fell asleep? :O

chinese was horrible.
barely pass can.
OMG. THIS TERM CHINESE PPR IS GOING TO DROP LIKE MAD.
someone save me.
like THAT tinxie that i failed last term is going to be included into this term's
then my recent tingxie? :O
then my test! :/
OMG. CHINESE. OMGOMGOMG LAH.
maybe its a good idea to be indian or malay lah huh ;)
but im proud to say im happy with my history marks. :D
at least SOMETHING to pull my hist marks up.
lets hope SOMETHING pops up to pull my pathetic chinese up.
and im actually quite shocked im not that sad for chinese.
like i just PASS lah. but for maths its like okay pass
and i can grieve over it.
i didnt even bother to listen to wenwei when he went through it lah.
i was so depressed i didnt want to even look at it please.
I HATE MYSELF AND MY CARELESSNESS.

gosh :/ i suck.

why cant i be like .. like .. MAYKUN
THATTHAT eeurghhhhhhh

tomm is so sian lah. :/
NP+SWMG.
i'll tell you if i survive.

hey people like HANXU (:
cheer up for chinese okay.
and hiutung is not someone you should get upset over with lah!
(: so dont be angry anymore.
although youre like the cutest when you are ;D

my stomach still hurts so badly and i still hate sneezing. :/

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